Today I woke up with the expectation that I would make this day count. I would clean, sweep, cook, read, write, and somehow drink my coffee before it turned cold. I Mr. Cleaned my office desks, cleaned my iPad and MacBook screen with alcohol so that there are no smudges. I set my goal book and notebook out to fill out later with all the things that I wanted to accomplish this year both financially, physically, mentally, spiritually, etc.

Then a wave of exhaustion just hit me.

I can only attribute this exhaustion to improvement fatigue, the notion that in our attempt to progress to a higher state of being that we exhaust ourselves.

It doesn’t just end with our physical state of being, it can also envelope our space, our landscape outside, and our jobs.

I feel like I am improving myself into the grave. I cannot just stop and relax and take it easy because of the plethora of things that need done. Dust is piling up and my mind is becoming even more stressed that I am somehow behind. I hate the feeling of being left behind.

So, today I am going to be gentle with myself. Take it easy. Be unproductive. For the sake of my mental stability.

No books about financial peace, no podcasts about mental health, no writing about how I wish that things were different with my life.

I am sitting in it today. I am only going to do what I want to do. I may even take a nap. Everything can wait and I will not feel behind.

Be gentle with yourselves today.

-Elle Brown